Note: To keep posts short, I’ve made a Trello board with my goals for the year. Feel free to check it out if you want to know more about the bigger plan.
My word for the week is PROCESSING.
Mostly, it was about processing food properly as I ended up having issues there. But I’ll spare you the glamorous details…
I also had to process the realization I still have feelings for my future ex-husband and what to do with these feelings.
This lead me to consider something I’ve known for a while and what it actually means to me. I’m poly and I’ve never had any issues staying monogamous. I don’t know if that’s something he would consider and that’s not exactly the point now, as this is beyond my control. But I can work on accepting he might be with someone else without that being a problem.
Deep down, I feel our relationship is far from over, and just having two kids together means we are committed to each other somehow. No one else can share the amazing love we feel for our daughters.
Of course I do hope we can reconnect more deeply than that at some point, even though we obviously need to live apart right now, especially as we don’t want the same things in life.
But I feel more open to various option, depending on how he feels about all this.
So, as you can see, a lot of processing.
Other than that, it was a busy week with more homework at university and an intern at work, but I think I managed pretty well.